Boredom gets a terrible rep, I know. However, I’m absolutely convinced it could be the best thing to ever happen to me. I’m aware the idea of a dull life seems unbearable. When people hear about it, they picture themselves trapped in a dark room with nothing to do and nowhere to go, but the kind of boredom I desire is actually pretty liberating.
I grew up amidst incredibly high levels of stress, never knowing when the people around me would lash out in anger or when I would get severely punished for the silliest of reasons.
Later on, once I was an adult, I rushed into a relationship that turned abusive. Couple that with a full-time job as a teacher in a public high school, and you can start to get a picture of the kind of stress I’m talking about. I think it is safe to say tension and anxiety have been my permanent companions.
And now, I’m exhausted. I have been tired for a long time.
Boredom is in!
I have come to the point in my life where I can recognize that boredom is more exciting than what I had been led to believe.
I can picture myself adhering to a schedule full of mundane routines and repetitive tasks that become a safe space for me. Strange as it sounds, I believe this consistency would bring a sense of freedom and creative flow I just haven’t been able to have before.
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